SO I'm feeling depressed and confused, but this just gives me something to share my feelings with. I just don't feel the same way anymore. I thought I was in love, but I'm confused now. I don't know what I should do... Maybe, if I were to show him what he's missing, perhaps maybe then he would understand? I just can't take this weight anymore. I'm the one making all the effort.

I really need a job... I hope my next round of applications gets accepted somewhere. I can get some money, and maybe then I can catch up on my life as I've been missing out on. 3 years seem to be wasted sitting in front of this damned screen, and for what? A broken heart from broken promises? I think perhaps....